When...

Arrived from uitm yesterday just after maghrib... I've been sitting by my laptop since yesterday but nothing i've done regarding the thesis... Why this is happening to me... Allah please forgive for my sins, please help me completed my thesis.... i want to start a new episode in my life... I'm bored... but i've to start somewhere today... I have too.. I know I can... I still remember what Prof AA says to me... Aida u are hardworking, honest, u are good in writing, far better then the others.. u can speak very well, u have learn a lot, u are capable to work well with others... Hearing these from her is awesome... She barely 'puji' anybody... but she really raise my confidence that day.. I can feel it.. I think what Dorothy says is true. Read the poem that i've posted.. U know what i mean...

Children Learn What They Live (1959)

I luv this poem... It means a lot to me...

Children Learn What They Live (1959)

If a child lives with criticism, he learns to condemn . . .
If a child lives with hostility, he learns to fight . . .
If a child lives with fear, he learns to be apprehensive . . .
If a child lives with pity, he learns to feel sorry for himself . . .
If a child lives with ridicule, he learns to be shy . . .
If a child lives with jealousy, he learns to feel guilt . . .

BUT

If a child lives with tolerance, he learns to be patient . . .
If a child lives with encouragement, he learns to be confident . . .
If a child lives with praise, he learns to be appreciative . . .
If a child lives with acceptance, he learns to love . . .
If a child lives with honesty, he learns what truth is . . .
If a child lives with fairness, he learns justice . . .
If a child lives with security, he learns to have faith in himself and those about him . . .
If a child lives with friendlienss(sic), he learns the world is a nice place in which to live . . .

WITH WHAT IS YOUR CHILD LIVING?

Dorothy L. Law
TORRANCE UNIFIED SCHOOL DISTRICT
2335 Plaza del Amo
Torrence, California

Why....

I need 2 talk 2 someone... someone that knew me very well... Depressednyer..Bila tgk Mie, lidah jadi kelu.. x tau nak ckp apa melainkan komputer, komputer, komputer... I want to tell him that i'm worried, about money, about thesis about so many things... tapi lidah kelu tanpa kata2... seolah 2 dua insan yg x pernah mengenali tapi dapat hidup bersama sebagai suami isteri... Takut kata2 yg dikeluarkan menyakiti hatinya... tapi hati ini juga hiba x dapat nak mengungkai permasalahan jiwa... x dapat nak buat tesis tuh... x dapat... ingtkn berada disisi mie idea mencurah-curah... kegagalan ini yg menyebabkan lagi bertambah sedih... Mie pernah kata dulu.. ingtkan dah couple lagi bersemangat buat kerja... tapi sebalik pula yg berlaku... aku kehilangan keazaman diri... tiada perasaan pada tesis, pada study ku... satu masa dulu aku bersemangat, tapi semangat ku x bersambut... aku keseorangan... bila semangat itu telah tiada baru org tertanya2... sudah terlambat... Kebelakangan ini aku selalu termenung... sendirian.. kadg2 tersenyum sendiri... aku dah dapat apa yg aku mahu seorg suami... namun jiwa aku mengharapkan lebih lagi... itulah manusia... x pernah cukup dgn apa yg dimilikinya.... Melayan suami padaku x jadi masalah... cuma memenuhi kehendaknya... satu masalah bagi ku... kdg2 aku bosan... agaknya bagaimana Khdijah melayan Rasulullah dulu... Aku perlukan pendorong.. pendorong baru utk hadapi hidup nie sebelum sesuatu meragut kebahagianku yg secebis ini! Ya Allah!.. Bantulah hambamu...

Again...

This is the 3rd blog i've created n i hope it last long.... I'm lonely n bored.. Hoping that i can get over with my thesis.. ASAP... Ya Allah.. help me finish this task ASAP.. huhu